Rat's Saucy Nest

It’s somewhat long, so my answer is after the read more.

Aw, if you write non-anonymously, I could answer you in private and don’t have to bother followers with my ramblings.

About feeling bad at everything you do, and feeling useless: I feel like there’s this huge giant secret that not a lot of people talk about, because society expects us to constantly succeed at what we do, but: Everybody sucks at first. Everybody is bad in the beginning. You don’t just pick up a violin one day and discover that you are this amazing maestro because of ~*~talents~*~ or some other magical bullshit. You don’t become a great code writer overnight, you don’t have any artistic talent hidden deep in yourself or anything. I think talent does not exist. You can acquire a skillset, an ability, any ability, through many hours of training, dedication and a lot of failing. Some things might come easier to some people than others, some people will just have a natural preference for the arts, or medicine, or science, and they will gravitate towards these things. Some people may call that talent, but I think that’s misleading. Whenever someone speaks of talent, they’re kinda implying that someone is born with this gift or anything and they immediately invalidate all the struggle and the hours of training and all that dedication that person went through. 

I’ve read, that you can become a master in virtually anything if you practice it for 10,000 hours. I strongly believe this is true. Now the real question is: What interests you enough to sink ten thousand hours into it? You could become a great chef, but you probably wouldn’t like standing in a kitchen for 10,000 hours. (Or if you do, yay! Problem solved!) But I’m sure there is something out there that will hold your attention, something that you’re passionate about. Also, you’re going to be proficient and good in this thing way before you hit the 10,000 hours mark.

10,000 hours aren’t that much. It’s a little bit over 3 ½ years of doing something for 8 hours every day. I think I’m about halfway there with my art. And I started with literal zero artistic ability.

Also, keep in mind that you don’t have to go somewhere “meaningful” in life. You can just find something that you like and that’s good enough! You don’t have to become this huge successful and influential person. Truth is, most of us will not go anywhere huge in life. Most of us will find happiness in something down to earth. You don’t have to be ‘useful’, you just have to enjoy life. Find something that makes you happy. Try out new hobbies, go explore things, like I wrote in one of my previous posts, the world is this huge, amazing and beautiful place. Go explore it, and maybe you’ll find your passion and you’ll find something that you’ll want to work at to become good at. I find new hobbies and passions almost on a monthly basis. And don’t be afraid of failing. Don’t be afraid of being bad at something. We all are. Everybody sucks at first. I promise. It’s just the nature of things.

Most importantly: Be positive, focus on positive experiences, be open about things and interested in things, learn stuff! And most of all, try to enjoy the ride. I see so many miserable little fucks who go through life yelling at everything, hating everything and just in general being constantly mad at something and who always focus on the negative. I seriously do not understand people who are hateful or angry. Those people who yell at the cashier for minutes because of some petty shit or someone who writes a hateful tirade online because someone dares to like something they don’t like, don’t they realize they just wasted 10 minutes in their life being angry and miserable? They could’ve learned about the mantis shrimp instead (seriously, click on that link and tell me the world isn’t amazing as fuck). Or fapped to some cartoon horse. Or spent the time getting better at something they love doing.

I don’t know if that has been helpful, it’s just my thoughts on life in general! It’s good that you realize you should talk to other people. And I’m sure once you find something you can be happy or passionate about, you’ll find people with the same interest and friendships will naturally happen. If not, please try to talk to a professional, the lack of interest and passion might indicate a depression. But I really can’t do any armchair diagnosis, and like you said, I’m just a guy who draws horse porn and who has silly thoughts that he likes to share.

Sorry for the wall of text. I’ll go to sleep now! I’ll have some new horse porn for you guys by tomorrow!